CHAPTER 1
The sun dipped beneath the horizon, taking with it
the last light of day. Toshi crouched a little lower over his workbench as the
light faded, knowing his master wouldn’t want the lamps lit while a moment of
daylight still remained.
Bought from his family while he was very young, he knew his master’s
ways well. Just as Master Shun didn’t want any money wasted unnecessarily, he
also precluded spending it on unneeded frivolities. Toshi ran his hand over his
black hair, fingering the old, thin, stretched tie holding it in a ponytail. And
though the last few months had seen a growth spurt for him, he knew he would not
be receiving a new pair of knee-reaching breeches or a loose-fitting tunic for
several moons yet.
Still, he was well-fed, and the skills he was learning would earn a
better living than some. Aside from his not-so-common profession, he was the
same as hundreds of others, a boy with the usual dark hair, brown eyes, slightly
tinted skin, and almond shaped eyes—characteristics which made it virtually
impossible for a foreigner to pass as a native.
With precision gained from long practice, his brush slid smoothly over
the thick rice paper as he diligently copied the curving meridian lines from the
yellowing foreign parchment pinned on the desk beside him.
As he squinted, he dipped his brush in the small reservoir of ink built
into the desk. Gently twirling the brush on the bowl’s long lip, he bled off
any excess. His steady hand guided the brush in another slow curve, marking the
outline of his map. His attention didn’t waver from the delicate work, even as
he heard the shop’s front door slide open. “If you would please wait a
moment, O-kyaku-sama, I’ll be right
with you,” he said.
At an unhurried pace, Toshi came toward the end of his curving line. An
unusually cool breeze made its way through the long shop, carrying with it the
heavy scent of the sea. Like most shops in town, theirs was comprised of two
stories, one in which to conduct business, the other for sleeping and eating.
Master Shun believed in cleanliness, so a day did not pass during which Toshi
didn’t have to sweep the entrance or run a wet cloth across the floorboards.
On days when it rained and prospective customers tracked in the mud with them,
it was all he could do to keep up.
A large counter took up the left side of the front of the shop, while the
rear held the working desk and wall-to-wall niches to hold their wares.
He rubbed his suddenly cold feet together, wondering why the customer
hadn’t bothered to close the door. His gaze snapped up as he realized that the
customer had already shut the paper screen door. Yet the scent of salt and
seaweed still crowded into his nostrils. It was strange that the smell had come
so far and was so strong since the shop was so far from the port. Dismissing the
oddity as he heard the late customer moving about, he set his brush carefully
aside.
“O-kyaku-sama, I’ve
finished.” He bowed in the general direction of the visitor out of long
ingrained habit though he couldn’t see him. “I apologize for the wait. How
may I help you?” He glanced at the shadow-enshrouded figure on the far side of
the room, just as the last of the sun’s light dwindled away. He quickly left
the side of his workbench and its wooden platform. A small, unexplained chill
coursed through him as the customer’s ever deepening shadow came to loom over
him. “Sir?”
He didn’t receive an answer. Realizing Master Shun wasn’t likely to
make a sale if his customer remained in the dark, he shifted past the familiar
surroundings and reached for the nearest paper lantern.
“I’ll have some light for us in a moment, sir. I apologize for it
being so dark.” He removed the paper covering of the lamp and exposed the
candle inside.
“Where’s your master, boy?”
The unexpected voice made him jump. Though the customer was standing less
than five arm lengths from him, the low, monotone voice had sounded as if it had
been issued from far away. He glanced up to answer, but he hesitated as he saw a
flash of greenish light issue from somewhere around the customer’s face. He
rubbed his eyes, feeling foolish, even as a tinge of unreasonable fear tried to
crowd into his mind. Realizing his continued silence could be misunderstood as
rudeness, he turned away from the figure and answered the question. At the same
time, he reached to light the lamp. “Master Shun wasn’t feeling well today,
sir. He retired early. If you wish, you could leave a message for him. I’m
sure he’ll be feeling better tomorrow.”
Warmth tickled his fingers as the wick caught fire. He placed the oval
paper covering back over the candle. Its light gently spread over the room. He
then carried the lantern to the main counter in the front of the shop, and
turned to get his first good look at the waiting customer.
The man was facing away from him, so his gaze landed upon well cared for
armor with its small steel plates hooked on lacquered leather. He wasn’t
surprised by what he saw, having already figured from the harsh and emotionless
tone his customer was samurai—an
elite, upper- class warrior. Dressed as if for battle, the samurai wore the
commanding rounded helmet with protuding strips of plate to guard the back of
the neck. Fitted back plates and metal shoulder pads were attached to the
toughened leather that made up the sleeves and the lower skirt. Strapped on
leather tubes protected the warrior’s legs. No, what made his eyes grow wide
and his heart beat faster were the long tufts of wet seaweed hanging from the
armor. Droplets of water reflected the lamp’s light even as they fell from the
armor and the soaked clothes beneath to make a small puddle on the floor. His
eyes followed the water trail leading from the samurai’s feet back to the
front door, his throat growing dry.
He took an unsteady step back, not sure what it all meant. His gaze
traveled back to the armor and looked at the family crest painted there. The
crest showed three white crescent moons facing each other within a thin circle.
He didn’t immediately recognize it. It wasn’t one belonging to any of the
prominent samurai families in town. Perhaps the man was a ronin, a masterless samurai, but the good condition of his armor and
his kimono suggested otherwise.
Toshi watched with growing curiosity as the samurai slowly turned about
to face him. His breath caught in his throat as a demonic scowl stared him in
the face. He tried to still his racing heart as he realized the evil, horrifying
expression before him was but a mask clipped to the front of the samurai’s
helmet, hiding the man’s true face.
Taking another step back, he forced his eyes to leave the mask. Why would
a samurai in full battle regalia come here to see Master Shun? He wondered what
time it was and when the city watch would be coming by. Ever since the
foreigners, the gaijin, had been
allowed entry into the ports and even certain regions of the city itself, the
curfews and patrols had become more stringent than before. If he ran out to look
for them, would they cut him down before he could explain why he had broken
curfew? Or worse, would he even make it out of the store if he decided to try?
His eyes fixed themselves on the sheathed swords, the long katana and shorter wakizashi,
hanging from the samurai’s side. He wasn’t sure he could run past the
strange customer to get help before the warrior could draw either blade and make
its razor sharpness cut through his hide. Glancing up into the warrior’s
masked face, he froze. He had seen it again—a flash of greenish light in the
eye slits of the mask! Excitement and fear clutched at his breast and a thin
sheen of perspiration rose on his brow. He stared hard at the samurai’s metal
mask, noticing for the first time how dark the area beyond the eye slits were
and how the brown eyes that should have been there staring back at him were
nowhere in sight.
“Sir, it…it’s time for the shop to close. Is there a message you
wish me to convey to Master Shun?” He tried not to look at the snarling,
demonic mask, though his eyes were drawn toward the unnatural emptiness of its
eye slits.
“Can you read gaijin maps, boy?”
Toshi felt surprise rush through him at the totally unexpected question.
“Yes, sir. A little. My…my master has had dealings with a number of gaijin
to try to learn their ways of making and reading maps. I have studied this with
him.”
He hadn’t meant to say so much. He didn’t want to deal with the
strange samurai. That was Master Shun’s responsibility, but his frightened
tongue hadn’t known when to stop. With a long, silent shiver, he wished his
master would come downstairs right then, even if it meant he would get a
flogging.
“Do you have maps for the area with the chain of islands just to the
north of here?” The samurai’s distant monotone slammed into him even as he
tried to figure out what he should do.
When he didn’t immediately answer, the seaweed-covered samurai took a
long step forward. Toshi took one back.
“Well, boy?” the samurai asked. His impatience was unmistakable even
as his voice sounded like it came from a deep well.
Not wanting the samurai to come any closer, he tried to answer his
question as quickly as possible. “Yes, sir, we have many maps.”
“Show me.”
He scurried away to the shop’s rear. Against the wall, on the right,
racks of small square-shaped shelves were stacked upon each other almost to the
ceiling. Ruffling through the carefully rolled parchments in a number of the
squares, he grabbed what he was looking for and walked cautiously around the
samurai to stand behind the safety of the shop’s front counter. He laid the
rolled parchment on the end of the counter closest to the unusual customer and
then backed away from it.
Without a word, the samurai stepped forward. Toshi watched as the man
raised his arm to reach for the map. Filled with a bolt of sudden fear, he
jumped back, smashing his head against one of the shop’s wooden support beams,
as the hand he had expected to see reaching for the map never appeared. With
spots of color flying before his eyes, he stared in paralyzing horror as
fleshless fingers reached instead to claim the waiting map.
“You’re obake. A monster!” The boy clamped his hands over
his mouth as he realized the accusing words were his. He stared at the samurai
in cold horror sure his words would be the end of him. The samurai ignored him.
As his death didn’t immediately manifest itself, his eyes shrunk back
to normal. He made no attempt though to remove his hands from his mouth.
With dread-filled fascination, he watched the samurai’s fleshless hand
as it took the rolled map and with another undid the string holding it together.
He observed the skeletal fingers as they spread the map out over the top of the
counter.
All the old stories were true. Demons did walk the earth. But why was
this demon here? He and Master Shun had done all Shinto prescribed in
order to keep themselves out of the reach of evil or mischievous spirits.
Shinto—The Way of the Gods—had made them aware of the spirits that inhabited
every rock, tree, and mountain, and which spirits were best avoided and how. The
two of them had exorcised the shop and its living quarters above on New Year’s
like they did every year, driving the evil spirits out and good luck in.
They’d gone to the temple and made the prescribed offerings. The prayer strips
were all in place. Had the gods decided not to protect them? What had Master
Shun done to bring such evil to this place?
“Are all known reefs and other hazards of the area contained within
this map?” The samurai’s voice reached out to him.
He nodded rapidly, his hands still clamped over his mouth. He suddenly
tried crawling back into the beam behind him as the samurai’s empty stare
turned toward him, a flash of eerie green light momentarily filling the mask’s
slits. Sweat poured down the side of his face as he realized with a start the
samurai hadn’t seen his nod and was therefore still waiting for his answer. He
forced his hands to move away from his mouth. “Y- yes, sir.” He
could barely keep his words from stumbling over each other. “It’s…it’s
all there, as far as I know. Master Shun has spent a lot of money getting the
gaijin to help him make accurate maps.”
He clamped his hands over his mouth again, knowing he’d just told more
than he liked. The samurai’s stare shifted away from him back to the map.
“You can read this map? The numbers, the words?”
He hesitated a long moment before nodding as the samurai’s eyes turned
toward him again.
“Could you guide someone with it if you had the gaijin instruments?”
he asked.
Toshi stared at the samurai, caught off guard by the question. Should he
lie? Very few people had the opportunity to meet gaijin, let alone learn their
ways. The demon couldn’t possibly know the gaijin merchant they’d contracted
had taught him a lot more than had been required. Even Master Shun didn’t know
how much he’d learned. As a demon, he wouldn’t sense the lie, would he?
“Well?” The deep voice didn’t sound happy to be kept waiting.
Green fire flared in the snarling mask’s eyes, and Toshi knew he
couldn’t take the risk. Though he had a horrible feeling he would regret his
truthfulness, he nodded.
“Fetch me paper, ink, and brush.”
He cringed against the wall, not understanding the reason for the
request.
“Move.” The samurai’s fleshless hand dropped to the hilt of his
katana.
Driven by the commanding tone as well as the unspoken threat, he bolted
from where he stood to the back of the store.
Searching for the items requested, he hurried back, the skin on the back
of his neck prickling as he noticed the samurai standing between him and the
door.
He almost dropped the wooden ink well on the counter as he tried to put
the requested items down. Laying all the supplies within the samurai’s reach,
he scurried back to stand against his wooden beam.
The samurai’s skeletal hand reached out and expertly took hold of the
thin, long-handled brush. Through frightened eyes, Toshi noted as each of the
delicate bones in the hand moved with careless grace. Goose bumps covered his
arms and back as he saw there was nothing holding the bones together.
With elegant fluidity, the samurai inked the brush and then began to
write. Despite himself, Toshi appreciated the evenness of the samurai’s
strokes. The writing was very clear, and he had no trouble reading it despite
the fact it was upside down to him. With morbid curiosity, he found himself
reading the message the samurai was writing for Master Shun. Literacy had been
one of the few unexpected gifts he had gained since he’d been sold as an
apprentice.
His face drained of color as he realized the meaning of what he was
reading.
“No! Sir, please don’t do this,” he pleaded. “Master Shun
doesn’t want to sell me. I’ve been his apprentice for too many years. You
mustn’t do this, sir. You mustn’t do this!” Fear overwhelming his sense,
he leapt forward to grab the offensive piece of paper. Before his fingers could
even brush its surface, the samurai’s bony hand lashed out and caught his
wrist.
Toshi stared in desperation at the glowing eye slits as an unearthly cold
spread into his arm from the samurai’s fleshless hand. The cold moved through
him like a living thing, paralyzing him where he stood.
Never loosening his hold on the boy’s arm, the samurai returned to
completing his message.
As the grisly metal face looked elsewhere, Toshi found his eyes and
numbed mind free again. He tried to scream so he could wake up Master Shun or
attract the watch—anything that might get him away from this demon, but his
vocal cords were as frozen as the rest of him.
He read the note again and again, noticing as the samurai finished it
that it lacked his signature. Who was this demon? Studying the family crest
again, he thought he might have seen it somewhere before. Was it important?
The samurai reached down and brought out a hand-sized silk sack from
within the lacquered armor. The jingle of coins echoed through the room as the
samurai let the sack drop on the counter. He then reached within a small bag at
his side and brought out a long bamboo tube. He carefully rolled up the map and
placed it inside. Returning the tube back to the bag, the samurai turned his
burning green eyes in Toshi’s direction. “Come,” he commanded.
The intense cold that had kept him rooted to the spot lessened. He walked
hesitantly around the counter, the samurai pulling on his wrist.
His worried eyes swept through the shop, a heavy feeling in the pit of
his stomach telling him this would be the last time he’d ever see the place
he’d called home since he was six. With a sweeping sense of loss, of leaving
all he had ever known, he stopped and planted his feet on the floor, not willing
to let it all go so easily.
Without looking back, the samurai yanked his arm, forcing him to pitch
forward.
Landing hard on his knees, Toshi felt his eyes fill with pain-induced
tears as the samurai then pulled him toward the door. The snarling mask, with
its glowing eyes, glared at him without the slightest sign of pity or mercy.
With a soft whoosh, the samurai slid open the shop’s paneled front door
and wrenched him to his feet. “Now walk.” The samurai’s free hand landed
on his sword’s hilt once more, reminding the boy of its silent but deadly
threat.
Toshi looked away, hating the way he felt as he realized he had no
choice. He slipped on his old sandals, sitting just on the outside of the store
entrance, and stepped out of his old life forever.
Keeping his eyes on the dirt road, he walked on as the samurai set an
easy pace away from the shop. As they walked, a thin fog sprung up around them.
He shivered, cold inside and out. In an instant, all that he was being forced to
leave behind flashed through his mind: Master Shun, quirky and strange though he
was; the Kawa family next door and their gaggle of children; the sweet dumplings
he always bought during festival nights from the old woman near the temple; his
room and his few possessions; and the friends he’d made from the gaijin ship.
His heart ached.
Very few lights were on in the bottom floors of the many two-storied
buildings surrounding them on either side. A number of the lights in the living
quarters on the second floor had already gone dark as well. Only the howling
wind and the lonely call of a stray dog disturbed the silence as he was led down
the street in the direction of the docks. He shuddered under the warm night
breeze as the samurai strolled on as if he were lord of everything around him.
Toshi refused to allow himself to look at him, to look at the monster that was
ripping him away from all he knew. The scent of the demon’s clinging seaweed
wrapped itself about him as they walked.
The buildings changed as they approached the docks. The wood and paper
homes grew smaller as they crowded in side by side. The wail of a hungry child
or a quiet, lonely moan occasionally escaped into the street, the smell of human
waste and rotting garbage growing ever thicker. The samurai appeared to be
oblivious to it all, yet for Toshi, these sounds only too clearly expressed the
despair and unfairness welling up inside him.
He slipped a hateful glance at the samurai. Of course it wouldn’t
bother a demon if there was suffering and misery in the world or that he was
about to add to it. After all, wasn’t that what demons were for? He quickly
wiped at the tears threatening his eyes, determined not to show any weakness to
this demon. Though he hoped for it with every step, the samurai’s cold grip
never lessened on his wrist. If only he got a chance to try to escape!
With unbelieving eyes, as they crossed the last street intersection
before the docks, he spotted two samurai of the watch. Hope sprung into his
heart, and he tried to scream for their attention as the demon pulled him on
across the street.
Though he tried and tried, no sound made it past his lips. The two men
continued walking away even as he felt his last chance for freedom being swept
away by fate.
While his soul wailed with despair, his eyes lighted on a rock on the
dirt road less than two feet in front of him. He felt an urge to look at the
demon beside him, to make sure he hadn’t seen the rock. He forced himself to
curb the impulse and kept his eyes glued to his one possible means of salvation.
Leaving himself no time for thought, he dropped to the ground and swung one of
his legs hard, tripping the samurai. The armored figure fell. Toshi lunged for
the rock. Gasping, he felt the bitter cold from the fleshless hand that still
held him pour greedily into his bones. He couldn’t feel the rock as he wrapped
his fingers around it. His body slowed as he fought with every ounce of his
being to lift his arm so he could throw the stone that might gain the attention
of the watch.
Perspiration broke out all over his body from the effort as the flowing
cold pierced him to the core. With a silent scream, he watched the two samurai
disappear from sight as his arm froze in a throwing stance. Hot pain blossomed
on the side of his face.
Unable to move, he couldn’t stop himself from toppling onto the dirt,
the samurai’s blow knocking him off his feet. A whispered hiss fell to his
ear, his vision swimming before him.
“Fool.”
He would have cringed from the scorn in the samurai’s voice, but he
couldn’t even do that. A hard yank brought him to his knees. He tried his best
to ignore the grotesque mask and the glowing eyes before him.
“If you find someone to try to stop me from taking you, I’ll kill
them. Their deaths will be on your head.” The samurai’s voice was cold.
Toshi looked away. He knew the demon would do as he said.
Another rough yank brought him to his feet. He gasped in pain at the hard
pull, the rock he had risked so much to grab falling forgotten from his numb
fingers. The samurai’s words continued to reverberate in his mind as he was
dragged forward once again.
Why would a demon be willing to kill to keep him? Why pay Master Shun
instead of just stealing him away? This wasn’t the way demons did things.
He offered no more resistance as the samurai pulled him onto the platform
for the docks. He kept looking back, however, trying hard to engrave the memory
of the home he was being torn from in his mind. He wiped at his face with his
sleeve, his eyes burning.
The majority of the boats tied close to them were long and flat-bottomed,
most of them fishing boats. On the dock’s far side were the gaijin ships.
Their tall masts and swollen bodies dwarfed all the other boats around them.
The samurai paid him no attention as he pulled him along and strolled
down each of the platforms, gazing at all the ships gathered there. After
several minutes, they came across a fishing boat with a small skiff tied to its
side. He was dragged toward it, even as he wondered what the samurai was
planning.
Moving through the fishing ship toward the single-oared boat, the samurai
left three coins wrapped artistically in paper next to the ship’s tiller.
Toshi’s eyes strayed to the small bundle, puzzled by the fact that the coins
had been prepared as a gift. It then dawned on him what they were being left
for. His brow furrowed. Why would a demon have need of a skiff?
With his one free hand, the samurai pulled on the rope tied to the small
craft and drew it closer to them.
“Get in.” Flashing green eyes turned in Toshi’s direction with the
barked command.
He tried to do as he’d been told. His legs though, still filled with
the samurai’s unearthly cold, were numb and unresponding. As he tried to get
himself over the edge of the ship’s rail, he shifted his weight too quickly
and fell. Watching in startled fear as the boat beneath rose up to meet his
face, his arm was wrenched from behind. Pulled upward, he was kept from landing
face-first into the boat. His legs continued to go down and smacked onto the
side of the craft as he dangled there by his arm, but he barely felt the impact.
This bothered him more than the fact he could have been hurt.
The samurai pulled him up further, until he’d gotten his legs into the
boat, before suddenly letting go of his wrist. Toshi collapsed to his knees, the
thread of cold pouring through his bones replaced by a jolt of warmth from his
pumping heart.
The fog that followed them on the streets slithered from the fishing ship
down into the skiff as if it hungered for them. He sat still on the bottom of
the craft, trying to dispel the memory of the wooden deck rushing toward his
face.
The samurai lowered himself into the skiff in a fluid drop, barely
rocking the boat. Gazing down at Toshi for a moment, he slid his hand onto the
shorter of his two swords before whipping it out of its sheath and slicing
through the skiff’s mooring line in one smooth motion. “If you try to leave
this craft, I will cut you in half before you can hit the water.”
He would have laughed at the irony, if he hadn’t thought the samurai
would cut him down for it. His body felt so numb and slow, he doubted he could
even save himself if the boat suddenly tipped over, let alone try to escape. He
felt the samurai’s green gaze staring at him again. He tried his best not to
let his own gaze cross its path.
“Take the oar and row us out toward the middle of the bay.” The
samurai waved his hand to the back of the boat.
He crawled where he’d been told to and stared at the long angled oar
waiting there. Watching to make sure his hands got around the oar, since he
couldn’t feel them, he wove it back and forth to get the craft moving.
As the small boat inched away from the docks to deeper water, he glanced
back at the city that had for so long been his home. His gaze grew moist as he
stared at the dark mass, no hint showing in the darkness of the bustle and life
that had made it so dear to him over the years. And now he was being torn from
it.
The fog grew in intensity. It cut off his view of the city. In a way, it
made it seem as if the city had never existed.
After a time, the skiff picked up speed. Toshi became ever more grateful
for the work the demon had given him, as it loosened the numbness from his body.
The heat of the work was exhilarating compared to the unearthly coldness that
had gripped him before. He stared at the samurai’s armored back, seeing
nothing but fog and sea beyond him. When he was feeling more like himself, he
worked up the courage to speak. “Sir, might I ask where we are going?”
The samurai didn’t react to his question, but remained fixed, facing
the prow of the boat.
He continued rowing and didn’t speak again. He still had no idea as to
their destination when his arms began to tire.
“Stop here.” The samurai made a chopping motion with his hand.
He stopped rowing, staring at the samurai in surprise, able to see
nothing but the swirling fog around them. Keeping his gaze locked on the
samurai, he waited to see what he would ask him to do next. An unwanted chill
cut through him as he tried his best not to guess at what it might be.
His attention was drawn to the water as bubbles formed on its surface.
The bubbles grew to a writhing mass, a soft glow coming from beneath them. The
fog slithered away as if afraid of what was happening in the water. He watched
the spot of light beneath the bubbles get larger and brighter.
His knuckles turned white as he gripped his oar in apprehension. The
knocking of his heart in his chest was the only sound he could hear as an eerily
glowing rod broke through the surface of the frothing sea.
The rod rose higher. A crossbeam broke the surface beneath it, long
strands of seaweed strung across its length. A tattered square sail followed, a
gold colored replica of the crest he had seen on the samurai’s armor etched
upon it.
While terror welled within him at the sight rising before him, he found
his gaze inexorably drawn to the samurai. The warrior slowly turned to face him
and stared at him with his burning green eyes.
Toshi shook his head in helpless denial as the samurai stood up and
pointed toward the still rising ship. “No! This is not my karma,” he
declared. “I won’t go to a cursed ship!”
The samurai stared at him impassively, the green light issuing from the
demon mask’s eyes brighter than it had been before. “Row.”
He shook his head again, forgetting whom he was denying while in the grip
of his welling fear. He let go of the boat’s oar as if it had burned him. His
gaze darted around, looking for a way to escape, and saw his only option was to
dive into the sea.
He turned, determined to leave the boat. Something solid struck the back
of his leg at the knee, folding his leg under him. As he struggled not to fall
over, he saw the samurai’s lacquered scabbard flash ahead of him just before
it slammed into his stomach. He fell hard onto the deck.
Panic drove him to ignore the flaring pain in his leg and stomach, even
as he fought to throw himself overboard. He’d reached the side of the boat
when his cotton tunic was wrenched from behind and he was yanked back with it.
He tried desperately to pull away, his fists flying, but a shot of unearthly
cold wove down his spine draining his resistance as fleshless fingers wrapped
themselves around the back of his neck. He screamed.
His terror and desperation multiplied as the cold spread through him.
Still screaming, he tried to pry the bony fingers from his neck, but his hands
were slapped away. Soon he could no longer move. With a soundless cry of fear,
he shut his eyes, not wanting to see what awaited him.
The flat-bottomed ship had come fully to the surface. Indistinct shapes
moving within it silently brought out long poles with hooks and snared the small
boat. As the skiff was secured to the side of the larger vessel, a number of
fleshless hands leaned over to reach down into it.
Toshi fought as he felt half a dozen hands attach themselves to his body
and pull him upward. The samurai’s hand left the back of his neck. In panic,
he snapped his eyes open to see why the demon had deserted him. He gazed
straight into the face of a grinning skull. Empty eye sockets stared into his
own, a reddish glow flaring for a moment in their depths. He opened his mouth to
scream but no sound ever reached past his lips. The fleshless face came closer.
The creature’s eyes flared with bright red light. He tried to squirm away, but
it was all in vain. His heart threatened to burst from horror before that
fleshless grin.
An arm was thrust between them. Sudden hope flared within him even as his
frightened gaze shifted to seek the samurai’s masked face.
He didn’t feel the samurai’s hand as it latched onto his. His numbed
body was turned around, and he glimpsed the rest of those who were on board. His
mind wouldn’t count them, it didn’t want to see them. It shrieked in
disbelief as he stared at the white gleaming skeletons before him. They stood
upright and wore clothes he would have seen on men on any common street. Some
wore short pants and sleeveless shirts. Others only wore fudoshi—a
long cloth coiled around the body that served to cover the genitals like a
loincloth—and short vests.
Half supporting, half dragging him, the samurai took him toward a door
set in the wall of the raised deck housing the tiller. His mind was as numbed by
terror as his body was by cold; he didn’t resist as he was taken into the
small hallway beyond.
Ignoring the ladder going below, the samurai pulled him forward, stopping
before the second doorway on the right. Throwing the door open, the samurai
thrust him inside. Unable in his paralysis to break his fall, he slammed into
the glowing floor. The door was closed and bolted behind him.
The pain of the fall a very faint perception, Toshi gave in to his fear
and despair. He scooted himself to a corner and hugged his knees to his chest.
His wide eyes stared at the glow in the room that permeated everything.
CHAPTER 2
Toshi sat bolt upright, realizing that at some point
during the night, he’d fallen asleep. He glanced quickly about him, dislodging
a thick blanket from his shoulders. He was on a ship—a haunted ship. A chill
coursed through him as he recalled all that had gone on before.
He grabbed the fallen blanket, not sure where it had come from, and
wrapped it about himself. The thought repeated over and over in his mind that
normal walls didn’t glow like a million fireflies. The cold air in the room
made him shiver.
“Would you like some tea?”
He whipped around, entangling himself in the blanket, looking for the
source of the voice. He stared in surprise at a well-dressed woman sitting at
the far corner of the room, serving tea. The cut and style of her light green
kimono and her lavishly coiffured black-haired wig with its silver bells told
him she was geisha, an entertainer.
Yet, unlike any geisha he had ever heard tell of, this one wore a Noh mask over her face.
The delicate traditional theater mask of white painted wood was of a
handsome young maiden with large, almond-shaped eyes, rounded nose, and thin,
smiling red lips, but its illusion was dispelled as he noticed the woman’s
hands and neck were as fleshless as a hundred-year-old corpse.
“Who… who are you? What… what do you want from me?” He inched
away from the geisha, his voice cracking as he spoke.
The woman looked up at him, soft blue light showing through the narrow,
round eye slits of the mask. With surprising grace and beauty, in spite of her
lack of flesh, the geisha bowed to him and introduced herself. “I am Akiuji
Miko. Entertainer for his lordship Asaka Ietsugu.”
Feeling awkward at the unexpected show of formality, he made himself
return the bow. “My…my name is Chizuson Toshiro,” he said, his mind
thinking about how in the rules of the foreigners, his surname would have come
last, not first. “Though most people just call me Toshi. I was an apprentice
mapmaker to Hirojima Shun.” He licked his lips, apprehension filling him to
the core.
The geisha said, “I’m very pleased to meet you, Chizuson-san.”
He glanced away and said nothing, in no way feeling the same. He was also
surprised she’d added the honorific to his name. Why would a demon give him
such a courtesy?
“Won’t you have tea? If you’re hungry, I’ve some rice cakes as
well.” Her voice was kind.
He stared at the floor and said nothing.
“Won’t you do me this small courtesy? It’s been a long time since
I’ve had a chance to serve tea.” Delicately, Miko lifted a steaming cup and
held it out toward him. “Please, Toshi-san?”
His stomach rumbled as the green tea’s aroma drifted toward him. His
cold hands and feet insisted a little hot tea would do no harm. He wondered why
she’d decided to use his given name instead of his surname. That was normally
a habit of people who knew each other well. “Hai.”
Keeping his blanket snug about his shoulders, he rose hesitantly to his
feet and advanced to the small table set in front of the geisha. Making sure the
table stayed between them, he sat down.
Without comment, Miko placed the cup on the table before him.
Waiting until her fleshless hands were well away from it, he took the
steaming cup. Thrilled by the warmth flowing from it into his hands, he just
held it, his eagerness for the drink itself gone for the moment.
When he finally drank, he closed his eyes, grateful for the warmth
spreading inside him. He quickly placed the emptied cup on the table, inwardly
hoping for more but not daring to ask.
Miko lifted a plate full of seaweed wrapped rice cakes from a tray beside
her and put it before him. “Won’t you have some?” She then proceeded to
refill his cup.
Studying the rice cakes and figuring they looked safe enough, he reached
out for one of them and took a small, hesitant bite. Finding that it tasted as
it should, he gobbled it down and reached for another. Before he realized what
he’d done, he’d eaten them all.
“Toshi-san, how old are
you?”
He almost smiled, content now that he was full, until he glanced up at
his unusual hostess and remembered where he was. “I’m almost sixteen.” He
wondered why a demon would want to know, but he wasn’t about to ask.
Miko held his attention as her head tilted slightly to the side making
the small bells in her hair ring. By the way her shoulders were gently shaking,
he got the impression the geisha was laughing behind her white mask.
“All young boys are always in such a hurry to grow up, to go out into
the world and meet their destinies.” Miko’s broad green sleeve rose up to
cover the smiling mask’s mouth.
He felt his cheeks grow hot. Yes, it was true he was only fifteen, but he
would be sixteen—a man—soon enough. What difference did a few months make?
Especially to demons!
He stared at his teacup, stung by the geisha’s silent laughter despite
himself. Unhappy about this, he said the first thing that came to mind in an
effort to distract her. “Why do you wear a mask?” He noted with satisfaction
that the geisha lowered her sleeve away from her mouth.
“I wear it out of politeness,” she said. “You see, I have no wish
to make you afraid of me. My features are less handsome than I would desire and
don’t complement my profession very well at this time.”
“Then you and your lord look just like the crew?” The question had
left his lips before he’d given it proper consideration.
“Yes, we do,” she answered. “Asaka-sama
thought it would be less of a shock to you if we minimized our current states in
your presence.”
Asaka-sama or Lord Asaka—the
honorific said it all. Asaka was their master, and he looked just like the rest.
A small chill crawled down his back. He felt himself tense as he braved himself
to ask the only thing he really wanted to know. “Why am I here?”
Miko’s masked face turned away from him, the bells in her hair ringing
softly as she moved. “Lord Asaka needs a navigator, one who can read the more
detailed maps of the gaijin.” She turned to face him again. “It’s
partially because of the knowledge we lack that we have come to be as we are. It
is our hope that with you, we’ll now be able to complete what we must. To
follow the way and regain our honor.”
He stared at the geisha. He had no reason to disbelieve her, though who
could honestly ever trust a demon, yet this couldn’t be all they wanted from
him. And since when did demons follow Bushido—the
samurai code of conduct?
“You mustn’t judge Asaka-sama
harshly, Toshi-san. I know all of this
is a major change for you,” she said, “but Asaka-sama
wouldn’t have done it had our need not been so great. You’ll be safe with
us. No harm shall come to you.”
He turned away to hide his expression of confused suspicion, his hand
rising subconsciously to brush back his mussed hair. He never felt the leather
band that held his hair in a pony tail loosen and fall on the floor. His long
black hair spilled over his shoulders. Only too vividly, his mind recalled the
demon mask with its glowing green eyes and the deep voice booming from behind
it. He recalled his first view of the crew, and that white skull with the
menacing red glowing stare, as they stood staring at him. That he would be safe
and unharmed here was not something he was in any way willing to believe.
He stared at nothing, a shiver moving through him, as he remembered the
implied threat he thought he’d seen in the one crewman’s red eyes.
“Let me fix that for you,” Miko said.
He heard the rustle of silk as the geisha stood up behind him. He saw her
skeletal hand reach for the fallen leather band. As her hand rose, it finally
dawned on him what she meant to do. With frightened eyes, he jerked away before
her hand could reach his hair. “No!”
He turned on the geisha in a half crouch, waiting for her to try to come
after him. Instead, he found her sitting perfectly still, her hand still half
raised in the air.
“What’s wrong?” Miko leaned forward. He scooted away from her. “I
was only going to tie your hair. I wasn’t going to hurt you.”
He watched her suspiciously even as she harmlessly held out the leather
band for him to see. “No, that’s all right, thank you,” he said quickly.
“I would prefer to do it myself.”
Miko turned her head to stare at him at a curious angle. To his
amazement, he watched as she suddenly bowed before him, her forehead reaching
the floor. “Please forgive my thoughtlessness, Chizuson-san.
I had forgotten that all you’ve had from us so far was the paralyzing touch. I
had not meant to frighten you.”
He felt foolish seeing her apologizing to him. He was just a peasant boy;
she was a geisha and a demon. That wasn’t the way things were supposed to
happen in the world. “I had just thought…”
Miko’s white mask looked up as he hesitated. “Of course. You had no
reason to believe otherwise. But it isn’t true. When we touch others, it
doesn’t have to be the paralyzing touch they feel. We can make our touch warm
if we like. Almost as warm as a living human’s.” Miko sat up. “Won’t you
let me show you?” With a fleshless hand, she gestured to the floor right
before her.
His misgivings showing on his face, he slowly nodded and then inched
toward her. Turning his back to her, he knelt on the floor. Despite what she had
told him, he bit his bottom lip, waiting for her cold touch to creep into his
skin.
He tensed as a comb gently sifted through his hair. He hardly dared
breathe as the small comb descended past his shoulder stopping once to take care
of a painless tangle. Miko continued to comb his hair, her soft silk kimono
occasionally brushing against his arm.
He stiffened more as he felt Miko’s hand rise to gather his hair. The
burst of cold he had expected as her hand brushed past his neck, however, never
came.
“There, I’m finished. It wasn’t that bad, was it?” Her voice was
close.
He shook his head as he gingerly turned to face her again. “Why…why
are you being so kind to me?”
Miko stopped in the middle of placing her small comb back into her hair.
“Is there a reason why I shouldn’t be?”
He stared at his coarse blanket, not knowing what to do with the
unexpected rebuttal. “No. Well, yes,” he said. “I’m not a noble or a
samurai. I’m a peasant, a lowlife. You shouldn’t be wasting your time on
someone like me. You are geisha! You are of art, of beauty, of dance, all those
things. Why waste your time on one such as me?” He dared not mention the fact
that spirits and demons weren’t known for their kindness, either. While his
babbling could get him into trouble, he still had no wish to offend Miko in case
her kindness was, for whatever bizarre reason, genuine.
The geisha laughed out loud. It was a soft and gentle laugh. “Oh, dear
Toshi-san, where do you think geishas
come from? While some may like to forget their humble origins once a wealthy
lord has bought their contract, their past is still the same. I, like you and
countless others, was sold as a child to a merchant who favored me, and trained
in the arts of the geisha since I was three. I have been lucky compared to those
who’ve ended up in the red lantern districts, and I’ve never forgotten it.
Every evening I send a prayer of thanks to the gods.” Her eyes glowed. “You
and I have more in common than I do with any of the nobles and samurai I have
served during my life. Toshi-san, do
not belittle yourself.”
“But, Akiuji-san, you have no
idea of what I’m like.” He stared at his hands, not sure why he was saying
these things to her. “I could be evil or vicious, maybe even a pervert.”
Miko’s eyes shone a bright blue. “I don’t think I have to worry
about keeping my virtue intact any more, do you?”
Realizing he’d yet again made a fool of himself, he nevertheless
grinned as Miko’s sweet laughter once more filled the room.
“Even if I had to, I wouldn’t worry while in your presence.” Miko
leaned toward him for a moment. “I’ve always had good instincts for people,
and it has rarely failed me. I like you very much already.”
He blushed at the flattery and turned away so she wouldn’t see. Before
he could think of something to say, a bell sounded just outside the door.
“I’m sorry, Toshi-san, but
I must go now.” Miko’s hand rested for a moment on his arm. “Try to get
some rest. Asaka-sama will want to
test your skills this evening, once it is safe for us to rise above water.”
“But—”
“I’ll meet with you again before then with your meal. Perhaps you
would enjoy some music as well?” Without waiting for his answer, Miko stood
and silently slipped past him toward the door.
“Rise above water?” He stared at her as she rose, perplexed.
Miko turned back to face him for a moment. “It would be wise if you
didn’t try to go above during the daytime.” With a rustling of silk, she
left the room. A cold shiver coursed through him as he forced himself to sit
back down.
Alone, with nothing else to do, he examined his room. Other than the
small table in the corner with its half-filled teapot, his cup, and an empty
plate, the glowing room contained nothing else but himself, his blanket, and two
empty buckets sitting against the far wall.
He stared at the closed and possibly unlocked door of his room as the
weight of his predicament once more settled down around him. For a moment, he
thought of trying to escape again, yet Miko’s parting words and his own
recollection of the ship as it rose from beneath the water made him realize
there was nothing he could do, except maybe die. It was amazing he wasn’t dead
already. The concept of being underwater, yet still able to breathe, seemed more
than he could ponder. And he had other problems besides those. He was to be
tested by the samurai that night. He shuddered at the thought. In the unfamiliar
silence of his room, he wondered what would happen to him should he fail the
test. He doubted Asaka would be gracious enough to return him home. His mind
easily pictured his most possible reward.
Now colder than when he had awakened, he curled up in his blanket and
returned to his corner.
“Toshi-san.
It’s time to get up. Toshi-san.”
His heavy eyelids flickered open as he felt himself shook by the
shoulder. A bright silver kimono with glowing gold and red flowers filled his
field of vision as Miko knelt at his side. Smiling slightly, glad she was there,
he let his eyes close again.
“Toshi-san, it’s time to
eat. Asaka-sama will be coming for you
shortly.”
The demon’s name brought him up short. With a grimace, he opened his
eyes and pushed himself up into a sitting position. Rubbing at his face, he
gradually became more alert as the scent of freshly brewed tea wove itself into
his nostrils.
“That’s much better,” Miko said. “Now come, let me serve you. We
haven’t much time.”
He draped his blanket about himself and rose groggily to his feet before
sidling over to the small table at the corner of the room.
Serving him tea, Miko also placed in front of him a plate filled with
dried fish and rice cakes. To his delight, he also noted she’d brought him a
couple of sweet cakes.
As he ate, he watched the geisha as she rose from the table and headed to
the door. Sitting beside it, propped against the wall, was a koto. He watched with some awakening interest as she picked up the
long, gently curving, wooden instrument and set it on the floor before her. Miko
bowed to him then picked up a small pick after sliding small wooden blocks
beneath each of the strings over the main body and setting them up in a specific
pattern. Long, lonely notes filled the room as she wove her music for him.
Downing a second cup of hot tea as fast as his throat would tolerate, he
listened. With a bit of surprise, he found himself caught up in the music as its
sounds turned from sweet melancholy to a brash, more upbeat pace. He became
fascinated just watching her play. He slid his plate from the table to set it
before him so he wouldn’t have to look away to eat. Miko’s movements were so
fluid, so precise, her fleshless fingers handling the instrument almost as if it
were a part of her.
While he sat there, he dared to try and imagine how the geisha might have
looked in life. That a spirit could create such beauty dazzled him. He wondered
if she were trying to imprison him in some sort of spell. He found that at the
moment he didn’t care if she was.
He continued to eat, lost in the music, until a sudden knock on the door
reverberated through the room. Miko stopped playing. The door to the room
opened.
Toshi felt his throat go dry as the still armored samurai stepped into
the doorway. He swallowed hard as he forced himself to bow.
“Come, boy,” the samurai said.
He darted a glance toward Miko and saw her nod. Hiding himself in his
blanket, he stood up and shivered, wondering if he would feel the samurai’s
cold touch tonight.
“Leave it.” A bony hand pointed at his blanket.
Toshi released a heavy sigh. He let the only warmth he’d had fall off
behind him and walked to the door as the samurai removed himself from the
doorway. Asaka walked down the hall, leaving him to follow. The samurai stopped,
blocking the way to the exterior door, as splashing sounds rang faintly beyond.
They stood there for almost a full minute before the samurai reached to open the
door.
A blast of night air smashed into the boy’s shivering body as the door
was momentarily ripped from Asaka’s grasp. As the latter stepped outside,
Toshi grabbed for the doorway when the ship abruptly rocked to the left.
Nervously, he stared out at the wet, glowing deck. Two columns of skeletal men
sat toward the bow of the ship, all holding long oars which they were using to
move the flat-bottomed vessel. He looked away from them and their fleshless
bodies, a shiver crawling up his spine.
Stepping out onto the deck, he noticed the overcast night sky. The
blowing wind slapped his face. The ship shifted to the right, and he felt his
filled stomach knot up inside him. Doing his best to ignore it, he carefully
climbed the ladder next to the doorway, following Asaka up. The ship tilted
again, but he held on, his stomach knotting up a little more. Reaching the top,
he stood uneasily on the glowing deck and waited for the samurai to tell him
what to do.
“You’ll now determine our present position. Do not attempt to lie,
for I already know the answer.”
Hating the fear growing inside him at the words, he glanced behind the
samurai as a stooped skeleton approached them at Asaka’s signal. Stopping
before the boy, the retainer offered him the map Asaka had taken from Master
Shun’s store, and a number of gaijin instruments.
Trying to keep his footing as the rocking of the ship grew worse, he took
the map, avoiding any contact with the skeleton’s hand. His gaze swam before
him for a moment. The map’s contents seemed to move with the tilting of the
ship.
Attempting to ignore his sudden dizziness, he returned the map and took a
heavy coil of measuring rope with a weight at one end and a round cork on the
other. Leaning against the rail, he dropped the weighted end into the rolling
waves below. He dared not look at the moving water, which strove to make his
dizziness worse, as he tried to get a depth measurement as quickly as possible.
The choppy water wouldn’t allow an accurate assessment, but he was sure the
samurai wouldn’t care for the excuse. As soon as he thought the bottom had
been reached, he noted the marked depth of three fathoms on the rope where the
cork bobbed and began to carefully coil the rope up again. He hurried as much as
was prudent, his dizziness making his stomach knot up worse than before. Due to
the roughness of the water, he decided he wouldn’t try for a speed reading.
Returning the coil of rope to the waiting skeleton, he next took a large
compass. The small bowl-like contraption had a colorful card face showing all
the major directions and was submerged in liquid to keep it still. Quickly
looking it over to make sure it was in working order, he stood as still as
possible to get a directional reading from the bulky instrument. When he was
done, he traded it for a cross-staff. With it, he looked up into the
cloud-crowded sky, trying to catch sight of the North Star. Finally spotting it
as a bank of clouds broke for a moment, he lifted the cross-staff in its
direction. He felt his dizziness worsen as he put the long bar of the
cross-staff against his eye, his gaze following the rod upward to the North
Star. The ship kept shifting, making the star weave in and out of his sight. He
stubbornly kept trying to keep it in view. He slid the crosspiece over the scale
to align it against the star and the horizon to find the angle of their
latitude, just as Captain Valéz had taught him.
The North Star wavered again in his vision, and his stomach rumbled. The
swirling wind whipped his ponytail up into his face as he handed the cross-staff
back. Taking the map again, a few of the other tools, as well as an empty
logbook, he sat on the ice-cold deck. He tried to recall all the necessary
computations and, though light-headed, tried to do them as best he could.
He became aware of Asaka’s green stare raking over him.
After several minutes, Toshi came up with what might be a close answer.
He was about to give it to Asaka when his tortured stomach gave up and heaved
with all its might. Clamping his hands over his mouth, he tried to keep in the
lumpy, burning mess that suddenly rose from inside him. Forgetting everything
but his screaming stomach, he ran for the ship’s rail.
Almost falling overboard in his eagerness to get there, he clung to the
railing as his stomach heaved again. Not able to hold back anymore, he opened
his mouth and let the burning torrent empty from him to the sea. The acrid smell
of vomit filled his nose as his throat burned. His stomach continued to heave
long past the point at which it was empty.
Even in his present misery, he couldn’t help but notice the quiet,
overbearing presence of the samurai who came to stand by his side. It occurred
to his tortured mind to wonder if Asaka was considering throwing him overboard.
Perhaps it would prove to be a kindness if he did.
“Sir, I mean no disrespect, but I don’t think this ignorant boy is
going to be of any use to us,” the
steersman said. “It may take a long time, but I’m sure I can
eventually—”
“Silence!” The samurai’s voice roared at Toshi’s side. He ignored
it, still trying to stop his heaving stomach, inwardly grateful the shouting
hadn’t been directed at him. After another minute, his stomach finally began
to settle a little. He closed his eyes, letting the flowing wind cool his face
as he tried to disregard the ship’s continuing movements.
“I asked you for our location, boy.” Asaka’s voice bore down on
him.
He turned his drawn, pale face away from the rail and stared at the map
the samurai held out to him. Leaning against the bar, not trusting his wobbling
legs to remain beneath him, he carefully took the map and then the other tools
and let himself drop to the deck, his back against the railing.
He stared at the swaying map and rechecked his calculations. Again
getting the same answer, he moved an unsteady finger to point out their
position, which lay near the coast.
Trying not to glance at Asaka as the samurai looked over his shoulder, he
held his finger in place. Asaka took the map from him, his only acknowledgment
of the information being a barely audible humph. Not looking back, the samurai
strode to the skeleton manning the ship’s tiller. Toshi tried hard not to
care.
The bent skeleton walked up to him. Though he had no liking for the
fleshless grin that approached him, he couldn’t find the strength to move from
where he was. Never looking directly at him, the retainer took the instruments
from his unresisting hands and walked away.
Unable to swallow away the acrid taste still in his mouth, Toshi closed
his eyes and sat as unmoving as possible on the rocking deck. He drew his knees
up and curled his arms around his legs, the cold seeping into him from the deck
beneath him. Trying not to moan in his undiminishing misery, he suddenly opened
his eyes. He felt someone staring at him. He barely realized it was Asaka,
before the latter abruptly reached out for his arm. He cringed at the
unavoidable touch, a spear of fear shooting through him. Yet, when the fleshless
fingers wrapped around his flesh, no trace of the paralyzing touch reached out
for his skin.
“Get up,” Asaka said.
Using the rail and the samurai’s pull on his arm for support, he
scrambled to his feet. He swayed with the ship’s tipping movements, but
Asaka’s firm grip kept him from falling.
Steering him toward the ladder, Asaka held onto his arm until he’d
started to descend. Feeling a little steadier when he reached the main deck, the
boy didn’t wait to be led but quickly stumbled his way to the door. He opened
it and tripped inside as his stomach began knotting up on him again. Moaning
softly in despair at what might come upon him once more, he shivered, feeling
the cold radiating from the walls, assaulting his exposed skin from every angle.
Hurrying to his assigned room, he careened toward the wall as the ship
abruptly tilted to the left. A steady hand kept him from smacking into it,
making him glance behind him in surprise. It was the samurai. With Asaka’s
firm grip back on his arm, he was led the rest of the way to his room.
His prison’s blank, glowing walls glared silently at him as he entered.
His sickness washed over him. A dead certainty stole over him then, and though
the unearthly cold of the ship was mercilessly flowing into him, he didn’t run
for his blanket when he was released. Instead, he turned around to face the
departing samurai.
“Asaka-sama, please. I beg
you!” He sank to his knees, his hands face down against the floor, and his
eyes closed in supplication. “Release me. Take me home. I can be of no use to
you. Please, I don’t belong here!” His voice got caught in his throat.
“Please, Lord, I beg you!”
“Worm.”
He pressed his forehead against the floor’s glowing planks, shooting
cold passing through it as it was already doing through his knees and hands. He
shut his eyes tighter with a prayer, his heart quickening as he heard the sound
most dreaded by his people everywhere. His acrid breath hung still in his raw
throat as the soft click of a katana being slightly drawn from its sheath
reverberated in the room’s silence. He waited for the end.
“I will ignore your statement this once. I expect it never to be
repeated.” Asaka’s voice was cold.
He heard the katana click back into place.
“The only release you will find if you do, is that of your flesh,”
the samurai told him. “I will have you, one way or another. If I must kill you
and then trap your spirit from rising to its next plane, then so be it. It would
mean nothing to me to have you join the ship’s crew permanently and find
myself one who has the courage to endure what you do not.” Asaka left,
slamming the door behind him.
Horror and shame poured through him, though he couldn’t explain the
reason for the latter. Tears ran freely from his closed eyes to fall on the
glowing floor as his mind’s eye cruelly provided him with a picture of himself
as a fleshless, moving corpse.
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