Dinner for one
Table for one
One
The most desolate number
That only the lonely
Know
Choking down the sour
Fruits of the tree
That springs forth
Sour life
Sipping from the bottom
Of the rusted cup
And the tinge of licking
The empty plate
After
feasting on your
Shame
Biting the bitter pill
Swallow it down
I love you
Be with me forever
I can tickle you with a feather
Rub on your toes
Kiss on your nose
Make you laugh and giggle
No sorrow for today
Love till we get carried away
Come with me, love
And build velvet gardens
That you dream of
There we sleep
With soft delights
Holding you to keep
For all your nights
Cause I know you’re my angel
I know this is true
And wake to your face
All my days through….
(untitled)
Let me live on in these words
And let me be happy on these pages
Or whatever emotion I bestow
With this immortality of the
Written word
Let this poem live on
In whoever understands
In whoever knows
Perhaps lived it
Like I have
I know it
I understand it
Keep it safe
So others can use it
And know
There are people who love
People who feel
People who hurt
Just as much
-You can’t be alone knowing that
Illusions
I can laugh at your wilted flowers;
Once was sweet as roses
Blooms to fill my darkness,
Grand fields of red happiness
Now decay at my feet
Turning the cycle once more-
Just another trampled lie
Sustained by churning oceans
But void of your promises:
I will smile as the thorn
Is plucked from my side
Having wandered too far
With too thin a skin
-And too small
An impression-
Of where the velvet shade ends,
And you begin;
(Held in highest regards)
I lay you in the weeds,
Not the angel I imagined
But the devil before me-
No longer immortalized
By my thoughts
As thin a substance
As you are made to be
-Lost you in me-
Swept away with
-Battered emotions
-Pointless inspirations
The portrait of the goddess
Now a smear on my canvas
Just a smudge
Of what would have been
The princess that danced
On my busy pen
Ringed in my words
And on my tongue
Sits a beggar on my lips,
Marked a flame
Instead of the sun.
15
If I was to leave
Would you ask me to stay?
If I was quiet
Would you make conversation?
If I said you were beautiful
Would you believe it?
If I wanted to touch you
Would it be okay?
If I were to frown
Would you make me smile?
If I was sad
Would you comfort me?
If I gave you the world
Would you take it?
If I drew a picture
Would you hang it on your wall?
If I kissed you
Would you doubt me?
If I held you
Would you feel safe?
If I doubted
Would you make me believe?
If I was numb
Would you make me feel?
If I were to stare
Would you know you’re beautiful?
If I were to ask “mine?”
Would you say “forever”?
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Kiss me, lover
Long and hard
I kneel before you
To confess my sins
Please forgive me
My life before you
I seek salvation
In you
Sweet dreams, lover
To you
I give
Twilight sky
To hold you through
The night
I wish to be there
Bless you, lover
This is my constant
You have to wade through
Take me lover
I am weak
Absolute disgust
For absolute power
Open hearts
Open eyes
Know your kind
Wicked man
And simple plans
Will topple
Your simple minded
Treachery
You don’t know
What is right for us
Anymore
Common hate
For your common evil
Trample the tyrants
Let the message wave
Through many hearts
That the time
Is upon us
The nimble
The meek
The innocent
Gather the good natured
And all those
Who will
Inherit our kingdom
The truth is love
Love is the way
(untitled)
Disregard when you can
Disregard who I want
Push it away
You dark people
And your pathetic ways
You can only sour
My conscious -
My heart
My soul
My third eye
Remains out of reach
Petty humans
I shine inward
For you
Leaving dull body
To contend with
Your mediocrecy
Dire
How many more times is it going to take
Before there is nothing left of me?
They take what they found appealing –
Sweet word
Gentle touch
Kind smile
Warm body
Passionate blue eyes
And they take until they get their fill
And they leave a husk of a man
Will it not end until they
Have sucked the marrow from my bones?
Or taken the last sparkle
And snuffed it like a cigarette?
Do not suffer this boy
For ye shall suffer also
One side of me a gentle kiss
The other – executioner
I will tell you everything you want to hear
And tell you “you are my world”
Now with my forked tongue
I cut you deep and make you bleed
Only after I have stripped
Your divinity that I have given you
I will take your humanity – for I gave that also
And it is mine to take back
All is mine to take back
And leave you with
Nothing
Flowers and Candy
The sun didn’t shine
Birds didn’t sing
Bitter taste
For such a sweet day
Abandoned
Solitude
Nothing to give
To no one
-Taking what
I’m giving-
Wonder where she is
Maybe I don’t care
Maybe I don’t want to smile
At pseudo love
-Just wanted you
-Just wanted you
Where’s your promising eyes…
Where’s your soothing lips…
Where’s your compassion…
Fuck you, valentine
(untitled)
I dream of sad girls
With pouty lips
And big teary eyes
Frail hearts
And tender emotions
~ Cry when you say you love me ~
I dream of strong women
With dangerous looks
And killer smiles
Sharp minds
And keen intellect
~ Care when you break my heart ~
I dream of you
Timely in decision
Lack in perfection
Quick with wit
And easy in sorrow
All I want
All I need
~ Just Love Me ~
And the sky and the sea
Rage and flow
And bang against the door
In my skull
The rage
-Stuff shut inside-
The flames of hell ~
The hurricane winds ~
Blow through me
Beware my dear
For I am going to unleash
My love upon you
The angry love I have
The mad desire
That craves your touch
The eating of
Myself and my soul
Cry your name
I am being devoured
By all the suppressed
Feelings for you
I want to yell how much I care
But the wave would wash you away
I would call your name
But the fire would burn you alive
Or I could touch you
And make you believe
That between
Heaven and earth
-There is someone who cares
Nice Guy
The need for chivalry is dead. The nice guys of the world are left in the
dust. Be cool, pretend you don’t need
anyone, and everyone will want you, need you. Open a door for someone and get
it slammed in your face. Say a kind word and get walked on to hear the next
one. Be strong, even though you get trampled. Look forward, even when you’re
left behind. Think positive, when you’re a stepping stone for someone’s well
being. Put her on a pedestal so she can knock you down. Hold her hand so she
can rip your arm off and club your hope. Don’t call to say “hi” or you’ll be
called aggressive. Don’t spend as much time with them as you can with her or
you’ll be smothering her. Don’t express how you feel, that’s not what they want
to hear. Don’t care about them – or you will place the weight of the world on
their shoulders. Shoot me – don’t say I’m nice. Kill me – I don’t want to be
your friend. Buy a dog if you want company.
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Did you see the moon tonight?
It wore your face
Big, bright, and enchanting
It enthralled me
She held me in her arms
She held me in her glow
Not unlike you,
My pale star
How I could sit and watch you
I feel like a lovesick child
I feel like me
Just like the moon sits
Atop the night
You sit atop my
Heart
Above
Everything
Timid
I wonder, while I sit here,
What you think
Where does your mind wander?
To whom does your mind drift?
Mine strays your way
Perhaps you’re thinking of me?
Even think of me while
I’m thinking of you
Thinking the same thing I am
At the same time
Like simultaneous lovers
Sharing prying thoughts
And contentful moods of
Gentle inhibitions
Secrets I can’t tell you
Dreams I want to sell you
You already know, though
~ I tell you with my eyes ~
Your eyes seem to change color
Blue
Let me dive in
Those enchanting pools
And swim through your thoughts
Green
Wrap me
In glowing emeralds
I love your eyes
They seer my flesh
And rest in my skin
I can feel you
Stepping into my head
Control me
I know nothing else but
Your eyes
You slay the demons
That sit upon my chest-
The closer you are
The farther the torments
Flee from my heart
And it seems only you
Rain
angels
When you begin to pour
Your kindness on me
Nestle me in
Your soft wings
And whisper pure Heaven
And all that comes with
Your angel touch-
Why do you tread
Amongst mortals?
-Disillusioned souls-
Brilliant divine one
Heaven lies not here
But in you
~ So may I cast aside
And fly among
The clouds
That I know you hold
In your hands
Angel
You say we only have tonight
Then I
love you
For only tonight
I love you without end
I hide my inhibitions
And love you unconditionally
My lips close to your neck
Where I feel your skin tingle
Parting them to take you in-
I breathe and all you are
Rushes into me
Your smell
Your sweet smell
The scent of your hair
Your soul and all that’s makes you a woman-
I can feel all your soft curves
Every inch of your body
You have no secrets when you’re this close
The soft flesh that you are
Your
smooth stomach
Like velvet and my blood pumps harder
My pulse races
Your warm breeze fills my senses
Sets them
afire
I’m going to ignite
You are
real
We are
real
~ I know your secrets ~
Bold in company
I gaze upon your beauty
As would kind lovers do
As I would do
Wrap your arms around my neck
Drown me in your flowing love
I will consume you
With this act of
Divineness and sweat
Entangled in this moment
I can see forever
In this flash of time
This glimpse of you
Only Heaven knows
This kind of emotion
And Hell knows
How far I will fall
My life is not enough
To give for you
Nor my blood
My soul either
We are one
Tired
I just need to get away
To your memory
When I’m weary
I rest my head
On your soft moment
And dream away
White nights
Radiate
Dark days
But only
You shine
*Sunflowers*
When my hearts
Ambers slow
It’s okay to be okay
It’s okay to be okay
Okay to be okay
To be okay
To be okay
Be okay
Be okay
Okay
You are no angel
But I know you have wings
You shine light
I have seen it
You are no angel
And you do not walk this earth
But your skin is smooth
Like one
As soft as one
You are no angel
Though you take me
High as the clouds
You are no angel
But you spread love
With a simple gesture
You are no angel
But your touch could heal
Or strike me dead
I want to feel it
You’re no angel
But you could save me…