(With acknowledgments to Heroichiro Myderco)
I dreamed of us as eagles in the air,
Adventurers through lightning-riven space,
Children of danger -- for you seemed to wear
Her careless colors in your laughing face;
I thought of us met high above the press
Of common hopes and fears, too swiftly daring
To forfeit our own storm-bright happiness,
And what our doom might be, too little caring!
Will nothing less content me? No, not me --
Who too familiar am with wind and star
To have much patience with mortality.
Will you put off this human guise, unbar
Your strong-winged spirit to the realms of sky?
You will not, Sweet? Forgive me -- and good-by.
We were trying
to explain Greenwich Village to our Japanese friend. We said that
it represented the revolt of modern youth against tribal custom.
And of us all, Fan was the most eloquent, remembering her twenty-odd years
of imprisonment in the quaint respectability of a Southern town.
The war, which had upset so many things throughout the world, had extended
its disturbing influences even into the town of Shiloh, sufficiently to
permit this daughter of an old family to come to New York and try to earn
a living. In that respect her adventure had not been so far a great
success. She had found and lost one tiny job after another, but she
had stuck it out for nearly a year, with the assistance of some kind of
allowance from her family. But there were compensations; once in
New York, she had flown like a bird to Greenwich Village and found herself
a lover. Carlo was one of our most talented young artists, and a
charming fellow. It was in the studio which they jointly occupied
that we were having this discussion. Carlo's canvasses -- he had
done a great deal of very good work during this last year -- were stacked
against the walls; and there were dozens of gayly colored pillows strewn
all over the floor, upon which we now lounged in conversation, sipping
our iced drinks. Fan had chosen for their studio-home a location
on a back street of which the name was not yet associated in the provinces
with Greenwich Village -- so that her address would not cause alarm back
at home. For Greenwich Village and its lawless freedoms had been
all too well advertised throughout the nation by shocked moralists; Fan
herself, immersed in Shiloh, had received her most definite information
about it from a sermon by the Episcopal rector, who related as a sign of
these decadent and godless times the fact that in Greenwich Village young
people kept house together without being married, and -- worse, if that
were possible -- separated without asking anybody's permission! "And
then and there, "Fan told us in her soft Southern voice, "I resolved to
come to Greenwich Village." In the whole history of the town, she
said, there had been but one divorce; and people were still talking about
it, though it had happened ten years ago. Nobody, meanwhile, talked
of the misery, the cruelty, the wretchedness of marriages like her father's
and mother's. Such things were taken for granted! No wonder,
then, that this beautiful, idle girl, bred up for marriage, had managed
to reach the age of twenty still unwed; and no wonder that, without any
intellectual background, she had nevertheless idealized the scandalous
freedom of Greenwich Village in the manner of mutings and partings.
We veteran Villagers had come to take this kind of freedom rather casually.
But to Fan, a beautiful tame bird escaped from her cage to next with us
wild ones, this freedom was the final meaning of the Village. And
so it was she, rather than any of us, who discoursed eloquently to our
Japanese friend upon that aspect of our Village life.
Our Japanese friend, who was a poet at home and
here a student of social conditions, listened courteously to all we said,
and then remarked gravely:
"Yes, your American Green Village reminds
me of our Japanese Green Houses."
We were rather shocked at such a comparison; we
were disappointed in the perspicacity of our Japanese friend. Indeed,
we were too embarrassed at the insult to say anything. But Fan, when
the reference to "Green Houses" had been quietly explained to her by Carlo,
turned upon the offender such a look of indignation that he felt himself
in the wrong and began hastily to apologize and explain.
"No doubt it was absurd for me to think that," he
said, "I had forgotten for the moment that you here in Greenwich Village
are revolutionists -- you feel confident of your power to overthrow the
old conventions based on property. But we in Japan are more humble.
We see that property considerations have ruled human lives for a long time,
and we fear that it is destined to remain so. And what place, in
a social system based on property rights, is there for the vagrant and
incalculable impulses of love? Little or none, it seems. There
is a place for loyalty, for honor, for domestic affection -- but scarcely
for love. That would be too upsetting. And so it is banished
from respectable society, to find its refuge outside -- in the Green Houses.
Let me remind you that the true oiran has been with us a representative
of the charms of art and intellect; and it is she, naturally, who stands
for individual choice in love. Without her, we should have no love
stories, no love poems. Our great legendary tales of heroic and faithful
and tragic love are woven about some celebrated oiran and her emperor
or poet lover. Our great popular art of color-print design arose
as a means of celebrating her beauty and her charm. She, in her little
Green Town, like you free artists in your Village, was an inspiration to
a populace confined in a routine too dutiful, too orderly, too dull --
a reminder of the existence of beauty and freedom: that was all I meant
by my comparison. I am very sorry to have offended you. Doubtless
it seemed to have other objectionable implications which were far from
my thoughts. It was a stupid thing for me to say."
We were all placated except Fan, who flung at him
the Village's worst word of rebuke: "It was a very bourgeois thing to say
about us!"
"I did not mean it so," he said,
and smiled at her. "May I make amends by telling you a story which
has come into my head?"
"Please do!" we all urged him. We knew his
stories -- incredibly romantic, too beautiful to be true, woven like a
delicate and fragile pattern in silk threads of many and shining colors.
"A moment of freedom -- or so we believe in Japan
-- is better than none. You here in your Village, planning freedom
for the whole world, may despise so slight a thing as a moment's freedom
-- no doubt you have the right. But I shall tell you a tale of respectable
young man in Japan, and his brief moment of freedom."
We lighted new cigarettes and settled back on Fan's
pillows to listen. And thus he began:
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"Spring Flower opened her
eyes, awakened by the patter of house-clogs along the little porch outside
her room. Then she saw Osomé, her little twelve-year-old attendant,
peeping in from behind the screen which stood before the door. 'Is
it time to get up?' Spring Flower asked sleepily.
"'Yes, beautiful mistress,'
answered Osomé.
"And just then the bells of
Uyeno temple began to chime the noon-hour. Osomé entered,
carrying between her hands a great polished brass bowl filled with water.
Still holding it, she knelt beside the quilted bed. 'Another day!'
said Spring Flower, lifting her head from the lacquered pillow. Leaning
on a pink elbow, she smiled across the bowl at Osomé. 'Another
day,' she repeated idly. 'What will it bring?'
"In the bowl there floated
a single delicate white blossom. 'Mah!' cried Spring Flower, bending
over it to smell the fragrance. 'That is a good omen!'
"At this moment, as it happened,
a handsome youth was stepping into a jinrikisha in front of the Tokio-ya,
the Tokio Hotel. 'Where, honorable master?' asked the 'rikisha-man,
turning in the shafts.
"The young man hesitated,
and then said, in as lordly a way as possible, 'I wish to see the city.'
"'Hai!' said the 'rikisha-man.
'The gardens, the temples, dinner in Uyeno, a theater, and then the Green
Houses!'
"'I understand perfectly!'
said the 'rikisha-man. 'The honorable master may depend upon me.'
He made a clicking noise with his tongue and started off.
"Isamu -- for that was the
young man's name -- sat in the jinrikisha stiffly. His haori, with
his family crest embroidered on the back and sleeves, was new, and so was
his European felt hat. He pressed one hand against the folds above
his sash, to reassure himself that his money was still there.
"He arrived in Tokio the night
before, and early this morning he had hastened to get through the preliminaries
of the business which had brought him here. He had gone straight
to the silk-house of Sato, in Silver-Seat Street, an enormous tile house
with closed shutters. A great awning paraded the sign 'Sa' -- the
first syllable of the great silk-merchant Sato; the walls were a dingy
checkered black-and-white, and an ancient willow stood in front.
He had felt very young as he entered the deep shadowy doorway and let the
boy remove his sandals. A man at a table in the further corner was
calculating on an abacus; that was Sato's head-clerk. He now came
forward, and they exchanged bows, while the boy spread a cloak for them
to sit on. Isamu announced himself, and made suitable replies concerning
his father's honorable health, and then tea was served. Isamu admitted
that it was his first visit to Tokio, and that he was now beginning to
take an active part in his father's honorable business. Gradually
the talk arrived at the subject of silk, and samples were brought in.
The master of the stock room was sent for; and as the heavy silent doors
at the back slid open, Isamu had a glimpse of clerks rushing to and fro
in an atmosphere of bustle and importance. Subdues by this brief
suggestion of the huge transactions of the great house of Sato, he followed
the expert and deferential advice of the head clerk and the master of the
stock room, scarcely daring to use his own judgment in the selection of
two of the new stripes and an imported sarasa. At last it had all
been finished. Now, as he rode through the streets in his jinrikisha,
he thought of that gloomy building and those grave men, behind whose suavity
was an icy sternness. He knew; his father was like that.
"Tomorrow he would go to the
silk-house and pay for the goods he had ordered; and next day he would
return to the quiet town of Mito, and live in the strict precincts of his
father's house, as usual. Bu today was his for pleasure!
"It was mid April, and
sunshine flooded the streets. The crowds jostles along good-humoredly.
Beautiful dressed ladies, with finely penciled eyebrows and tiny carmined
lips sped by in jinrikishas. In and out of shop doors they flowed
in streams, their pink u-moji flashing about their clogs as they
walked. They were different from the girls he had seen at Mito; different
from Ofumi, to whom he had been betrothed in childhood, and whom he was
to marry next year. Women had always been to him remote beings.
Now that difference became mysterious and impressive. His mind lingered
upon them as he passed.
"Soon he had seen all of Tokio,
its streets, its temples, its gardens. He had dined in the Uyeno
at a Western cafe, daring such strange food as beefsteak, pie, and coffee.
He had been to the Kabuki Theater, and seen a performance of 'The Love-Death
of the Tea-House at Osaka;' he had come out deeply thrilled, and reminded
of his boyhood with its romantic legends of hero love.
"'And now,' said the 'rikisha-man, 'the honorable
young master wishes to see the famous Green Houses.!'
"'Go then!' Isamu commanded
boldly.
"The 'rikisha-man seemed filled
with new energy by the command. The cart rolled swiftly through the
dark streets. Isamu's heart was filled with an obscure and delicious
fear. He was going into the legendary world of the oiran.
The bay appeared before him, a silver-blue under a sky of many stars.
The water lapped faintly against the rotting timbers of the dyke which
cuts off the lower end of the bay. Across this dyke the road stretched
white in the starlight, lined with willow trees that sighed gently in the
cool breeze. Ahead were the Green Houses.
"The old wooden gate, beaten
with the weathers of a century, loomed up at the end of the road.
An old willow tree dreamed beside it. The murmur of voices drifted
past.
"Isamu paid off the 'rikisha-man
generously, and entered the long street, filled with a laughing and curious
crowd that halted in front of each tea-house for a moment and then drifted
on. In the crowd were men of every sort -- officers in their bright
uniforms, nobles, merchants, foreigners, youths in gaudy clothes, ragged
students -- an irregular procession that flowed endlessly both ways through
the long street in jocund promenade. The tea-houses, graceful little
two-story structures with blue-tiled roofs, stood close together, with
now and then a sweetmeat-shop or a restaurant among them. At each
tea-house entrance hung a huge lantern, and the immediate interior blazed
with light. Over the shoulders of the crowd Isamu caught glimpses,
through the wide lattices which stood in place of a front wall, of the
beautifully dressed joros , sitting quietly as the image of Buddha
in the temple, with calm marble-white faces, black slender eyebrows, and
little scarlet mouths that uttered no sound. They seemed beings to
worship -- beautiful and distant beings, in their gorgeous gold-brocaded
uchika-ke,
which fell in rich folds to the tiny brocaded quilts on which they knelt.
Their hair rose in magnificent coiffures, in which like golden rays centered
a dozen jeweled pins. Behind them stood a long golden screen, with
a pine tree, wave and Fuji decoration. Fronting the open lattice
they sat, in a row of four or five, in shop after shop, silent, with eyes
seemingly cast down in divine scorn, unconscious of the crowd that passed
and stared.
"Isamu caught fragments of
talk. A flashily dressed young man was saying, 'Yohie, the rice-wine
seller, spent two hundred yen last night.' One student to another:
'Yes, they say she knows The Collection of a Myriad Leaves by heart!'
Keen-eyed attendants from the tea-shops mingled with the passers-by, and
singling out those that were richly dressed, recounted extravagantly the
charms and talents of the
joros who sat waiting silently within.
"Of this one it was said,
'Her voice is the wonder and admiration of all Tokio!' Of that one,
'Every word that falls from her lips is a perfect poem.' Of another,
'The wittiest
oiran of them all!' Isamu knew that this things
must be true.
"One by one, as he paused
in front of a particularly gorgeous group in a very splendid tea-shop,
four of these divinities arose at some word spoken within, and with slender,
stately grace and infinite dignity passed across the golden screen, out
of sight. There remained a single oiran, the most beautiful of them
all, holding a little pipe that now and then she lifted delicately to her
lips. As she breathed forth a faint cloud of pale blue smoke, her
glance wandered over the crowd beyond the lattice. For one moment
it rested on the figure of Isamu, and then looked him full in the eyes.
She seemed to smile slightly, and then turned and spoke imperiously to
some one within, and seemed to nod toward him. 'She must have mistaken
me for some one else,' thought Isamu, his heart throbbing violently.
"But a respectful attendant
came from within the shop, bowed to him, and said: 'The honorable young
master is desired to come within. The beautiful Spring Flower wishes
him to be her guest.'
"Spring Flower! It was
a good omen. She was in every way like her name. 'But,' he
stammered, 'is it permitted to ask to what I owe this good fortune?'
"The attendant smiled.
'It may be that she recognizes your family crest, and would ask news of
you concerning those who are known to you. Or, it may be merely that
you please her. The beautiful Spring Flower has many whims.'
"Isamu entered. The
attendant called out a number, and a maid came forward and took his sandals;
Isamu's eyes followed her cautiously: she put them in a box marked with
that number -- the box in which the sandals of Spring Flower's admirers
were kept. He was ushered up to a room -- Spring Flower's receiving
room. In front of him was a wall of black sand, with sliding landscaped
panels boxing it in on three sides; a floor covered with square mats, whose
fringed edges made a checkered pattern. A young girl attendant help
up a bright-colored
nemaki or house-gown for him to put on, and
spread an embroidered quilt on the floor. When he had seated himself,
a man attendant, entering softly, inquired what the young master wished
to order.
"'Whatever is customary,'
said Isamu. 'Wine, then,' suggested the man. 'A keg of rice-wine?
Yes. And a troupe of geisha-girls? Of course. And an
entertainer? It is well. I understand that the young master
wishes the best of everything. All shall be provided!' He bowed
himself out.
"Isamu pressed his hand against
a fold in his clothes; yes, his money was still there. He had not
taken too literally this amigos invitation; he understood well enough that
it was likely to cost. It remained to be seen how he could account
to his father for the missing money; but did a merchant's son ever come
to Tokio without secretly hoping for some such escapade? He was still
filled with elation at the thought that Spring Flower had chosen him --
for whatever unknown reason. It was of such an adventure as this
that he had dreamed. And come what might, he should never regret
it!
"The troupe of geisha-girls
entered. There were seven of them, delicate flower-like creatures
of about fifteen years, with eyes that sparkled like drops of dew; one
of them carried a samisen. Tripping softly, in their light
garments, they filed in, stood
before him, and bowed, with a motion like blossoms swaying in the wind.
Then the leader spread out her arms, and the others, as though impelled
by the magic of the gesture, were scattered into an irregular semi-circle.
The one with the samisen dropped on her knees
in the corner. Their lithe young bodies, moving in subtle rhythms,
seemed to melt into their draperies; and these were no longer merely garments
-- they were the soul of motion made visible. The leader raised her
hands, her white arms flashed like tall lilies from the indolent sleeves,
the strings of the samisen sounded sharply in the silence, and the
dance had begun.
"At that moment the panels
slid open, and Spring Flower stood there, looking down at him with
calm eyes. The panels closed behind her, and she came, stepping delicately
in her clogs, to his side, and sank on the little quilt before his own.
The girl attendant carried in her fire-box, set it on the floor between
them, and placed beside it a box of cigarettes. She took one, lighted
it, and gave it to Isamu. 'It is like life,' she said, in a voice
which made her words seem like the saying of a poem; 'pleasant while it
lasts, and vanishing too soon into nothingness.'
"While she spoke, the rice-wine
was set before them in slender-mouthed blue flasks. She poured a
steaming cupful, and offered it to him. 'It is like love,' she said;
'once tasted, it cannot ever be refused.'
"He took the cup. 'It
is my first taste,' he said. He had not taken his eyes from her since
she entered. When she sat down facing him, the silken sounds of her
garments made him tremble, and a perfume that was like ume troubled
his will with its fragrance. Her mouth as she spoke was like two
rose-petals unfolding. The white glimpse of her arm as she offered
him the cup of wine was like the crescent moon breaking from a cloud.
He wished to tell her so, but could not.
"'Drink then, he said, 'O
happy youth!'
"He drank, and the first sip
of the hot sweet wine gave him power over words. 'It was for your
presence that I thirsted,' he said. 'Why did you keep me so many
ages in loneliness?'
"She smiled. 'When the
field is awaiting the spring, she first puts on her robes of green; but
when spring has come, she decks herself out in her most beautiful garments
to meet him!' She had indeed changed into a more splendid dress.
"The music changed, and she
bent her head toward the dancers. "The sun shines on all the flowers
alike,' she said. 'Let my lord graciously look upon those who are
here in his honor.'
"'When one looks too long
upon the sun,' he answered, 'one does well to look at its reflection in
the water!' -- and he turned toward the dancers, seeing their loveliness
indeed only as a reflection of that marvelous being beside him, of whom
he was still afraid. While he watched, the dancers swayed in the
climax of the dance and then sank gracefully to the floor.
"Spring Flower glanced at
the girl attendant, who went into an inner room and returned with a samisen
. 'I have looked into your heart through your eyes,' she said, 'and
read there that you are no lover of the new songs, but would rather I sang
for you one of the old ballads. Am I right, my friend?'
"'You have read me truly,'
he replied, and to his delight and astonishment she began to sing the Ballad
of Shinnai, which he had always loved. Her voice in signing became
different, deeper and more resonant. As the stanzas followed, one
after another, in their quiet and noble melancholy, and with their wild
and heart-breaking refrain, he forgot her and was swept back into his childhood
dreams.
"He was recalled suddenly,
after a silence, from that far land by a noise like the barking of a tiny
chow dog. He looked at Spring Flower in surprise, for she had been
transformed in a moment from a voice out of the past into a street-urchin,
with comic twisted face, like those idle ragamuffins that played 'being-a-demon'
in front of his father's shop. Her fingers, which had but a moment
before stroked the strings with a slow processional dignity, now tickled
them into a succession of little hysterical sounds, accompanying the swift,
sharp, smart little words which exploded from her tongue, breaking now
and then into a tiny and irresistible chow-dog yelp. It was the 'little-laugh
song,' the 'giggle song,' the very newest thing in the Green Houses, the
fashion of the moment. Next month it would be supplanted by another,
and next year it would be utterly forgotten.
"She finished the song, and
clapped her hands together, and the geisha girls swayed to their feet and
untangled the complicated rhythms of another dance. Bending toward
him, Spring Flower said: "You need not be ashamed of enjoying that foolish
song, my hero! The samurai Goto himself would have listened to it
with pleasure.'
"'You made it beautiful, as
moonlight makes beautiful the roofs of a town,' he replied.
"'The bees,' she said, 'know
there is a sweet in every kind of flower. I gather the sweets of
song, my lord, from the pastures of the shadow world, and from the weeds
in the gutter.'
"The entertainer arrived mid-dance,
and presently began to tell stories. He was a fat little old man
with a droll face; he drank enormous quantities of hot rice wine.
He started in very gravely with an episode of The Forty-seven Ronin, changed
abruptly to The Boy Who Went Fishing, and went on with tales that set them
all rocking with laughter; and finally proposed a game of 'flower cards.'
But Spring Flower shook her head at that, and instead they played another
game, with a hundred cards, each bearing on its face a poem and a portrait
of a poet. These were spread out, fifty on each side, and the geisha-girls
and Osomé the maid joined them, ranged five against five, seated
before the cards. The entertainer read from a book containing the
same poems, opening to a page at random; and the first word was hardly
uttered when some one with eyes roving swiftly over the cards would put
a quick finger on it, and place it in the little pile on that side.
Spring Flower and Isamu were on opposite sides. Isamu knew the poems
well enough, but was unfamiliar with the game; at first he played badly,
and then, his faculties stirred by the zest of competition, began to be
one of the best among them. But Spring Flower won the game for her
side; while Isamu was recognizing a card, she had put her finger on it.
'Do not consider the matter so thoughtfully, my pet,' she said laughingly;
'when the eagle sees his prey, he strikes!' The game broke up amid
laughter and talk and the drinking of many cups of rice wine.
"As the entertainer and the
geisha-girls prepared to leave, Spring Flower sent her maid from the room;
and she returned with a handful of little envelopes ties with colored cord,
which Spring Flower gave to the man attendant to distribute among them.
'I am hostess tonight,' she said. 'This is for the leader -- this
is to be divided equally among the geishas -- this for the entertainer
-- and this for yourself.' 'And this, too,' said Isamu, taking from
his bosom a handful of ten yen bills. His father's money! But
what did that matter now? He had his reward in her smile, and in
the awed silence with which they bowed their thanks for his princely munificence.
The attendant whispered to him: 'Then the honorable young master will deign
to remain?' Yes, Isamu would remain. He was no longer afraid
of Spring Flower. More adorable than ever, she was less remote; he
had touched her hand in the card game, and breathed the perfume of her
breath.
"The recipients of his bounty
had bowed themselves back to the door panels; they smiled at him and wished
him good night, and their eyes seemed to flash him other merry wishes as
they bowed themselves out and the door panels closed behind them.
Isamu looked over to where Spring Flower stood, beside the empty wine-flasks.
Her long eyelashes lifted slowly, her eyes met his. 'The cherry trees
bloomed today in honor of your coming,' she said, 'and tonight my heart
is a bough that has put forth new blossoms.' The bells of Uyeno temple
chimed midnight. Spring Flower took his hand lightly and led him
into her chamber.
"The next day Isamu had his
midday meal at the Tokio-ya, and then climbed into a jinriksha. 'Where,
honorable young master?" asked the 'risisha-man. It was the same
one. 'Anywhere,' said Isamu. The jinriksha started up the street.
He could not go to the silk-house and pay for the goods he had ordered
the day before. He had found better uses for his money. He
had left it all in the little lacquered cabinet where Spring Flower kept
her sweetmeats. He had put it there early in the morning while she
still slept in her deep, sweet sleep; she would find it when she awakened
and remember him. He had kept only a bill that would pay for his
stay at the hotel, and his journey back home. That was as it should
be; anything less than all he had would have been too little to give.
But how was he to face his father? ... It was no use to think of that.
And so he thought, instead of Spring Flower.
"He wished he could send her
some message, And then a thought came to him, and he bought at a
jeweler's shop a long gold hair-pin set with a red stone, and sent it to
her with a little poem saying: 'The pine tree remembers the lightning.'
"He had left now only a handful
of silver in his sleeve, but it was enough to pay for the jinriksha, and
that evening he resolved to look upon her face again. The jinriksha
sped swiftly though the dark streets, the bay loomed up ahead, the white
road stretched on beneath the stars, the old, old willow tree by the gate
bent down its slender fingers caressingly -- crowds -- the tea-house of
Wakamatsu -- and there behind the lattice, Spring Flower! She saw
him, and smiled, and a moment later the attendant humbly besought his honorable
entrance. It was no use to explain to the man, and so he went inside.
"Without any delay, she came
to him in her receiving room, wearing his golden pin in her high coiffure.
'I have been waiting for you, my lord,' she said.
"'I have no right to be here,'
he told her simply. 'I am a beggar. I only came to look upon
your face once more.'
"She smiled. 'If you
are a beggar, then it is fitting that I should befriend you,' she said.
'Men have given me rich gifts; but no man before has given me all he had.
Now it is my turn to give. Be seated, my lord.'
"She clapped her hands, and
bade Osomé bring rice-wine. 'I think,' she said, 'that we
would rather be alone tonight, But I shall sing to you, if you wish.
Osomé, my samisen!'
"While she waited for the
samisen, she said to him: 'I sat in the garden today, catching the cherry
petals that fell from the tree, and thinking of my lord, who came with
the first cherry blossoms of the spring.' Then she touched the jeweled
pin that she had sent her. 'I was glad that you had not forgotten
me. And glad for the poem you sent me. I was not mistaken,
then, in thinking my lord a poet!'
"'You bring poems from my
heart,' he said, 'as the wind brings music from the wind bell,' -- and
he thought of how last night the moonlight had cast on the paper window
of her chamber the shadow of the wind bell -- a shadow that swayed vaguely
to and fro, while the porch came its ghostly tinkle. A panel in the
wall had stood half open, and the moonlight had swept in across the floor;
and a cloud, journeying across the moon, had darkened with its shadow the
face of Spring Flower. And remembering these shadows, he said
to her now: "I am not truly here, my beloved; I know that I am sitting
in the countinghouse of a stern old merchant in Mito, dreaming a boy's
dreams. The light of my desire has cast my shadow for a moment into
your life -- that is all.'
"'You do wrong to believe
that,' she said. 'You and I are real, and Mito is only a bad dream.'
She shivered. 'I know -- for I have dreamed that dream of Mito.
In my dream I seemed to be a child, a little girl of seven; a poor little
girl, wishing for the laughter and bright colors and happiness that she
never could have: my father a porter, a human beast of burden, with a back
scarred and deformed by his burdens -- my mother, gaunt and weary from
endless toil, his servant and the sharer of his sorrows -- and I, their
child, doomed to become a drudge like her -- oh, yes, I have dreamed that
dream! And in my dream there was a little boy, a few years older
that I, with the eyes of a poet and the bearing of a prince -- a rich merchant's
son. I wanted to play with him, I wanted him to say kind and beautiful
things to me, such things as never are said by human beasts of burden,
even if they are kind, to the women who humbly serve them and share their
miseries. And in my dream this rich merchant's son sometimes looked
at me and smiled as I stood in my rags in the doorway of my father's house.
And he passed on without a word, for what speech could there ever be between
us? And at night I wept, to know that I was unworthy of him.
Yes, you see I too have dreamed the bad dream of Mito.'
"'And you, he said wonderingly,
'are that little girl!'
"'No,' she answered, smiling,
'I tell you it is only a bad dream. And here' -- she offered him
a cup of the steaming rice wine -- 'is a charm against bad dreams.
Drink, my beloved, and then I will sing to you again.'
"'That night the light doze
of Osomé was broken by her mistress's soft hand clap. She
opened the sliding panel of Spring Flower's chamber, and peered around
the screen. 'Tea,' commanded Spring Flower, 'and cakes, and sweetmeats,
-- When we talk so much,' she said to her lover, 'we must have some refreshment.
And now tell me -- but, no, I will ask no more questions. Mito is
the same as it was -- it will always remain the same. But what have
we to do with such things as Mito!'
"Through the open panel in
the black outer wall the light of the waning moon entered softly.
It silvered the creamy folds if their silken night dresses, and became
entangled in Spring Flower's eyelashes. From the garden came the
faint sound of cherry blossoms shaken in the wind. 'The blossoms
only last three days in Tokyo,' she said/ 'Already they have commenced
to fall.'
"At noon, after they had breakfasted
merrily in her chamber, she took him into the garden. At the foot
of the steps were garden clogs ready for them; flat stones made an irregular
path about the tiny pond to the miniature Fuji with its little twisted
pine trees -- a cloud of blossoms. They walked on the strewn petals,
inventing sweet names for each other. He thought of Ofumi, whom he
was to marry next year, and would live with him in the gloomy shadows of
his father's house. He sighed.
"'Why are you sad, my beloved?'
"'I was thinking of Mito,
he said, 'I shall have to go back there. I had thought of losing
myself in Tokyo, of becoming an artisan. But what could I do?
My hands are intrained. And I am my father's only son. He will
seek for me and find me and take me home. I shall be back in Mito.'
"'You will have memories,'
she said, 'if you wish to keep them.'
"'Memories are not enough,'
he said impatiently. 'O Spring Flower, do you not wish we could destroy
Mito, destroy everything that is reaching out its iron fingers toward our
happiness?'
"'Every poet had wished that,'
she said softly. 'But the iron fingers are too strong. Nevertheless,
they shall not part us yet. You will stay with me tonight, beloved?'
"That night an
anxious merchant from Mito made inquiries at the Tokyo-ya concerning his
son. He was met with polite and reassuring smiles. 'Do not
be alarmed, honorable sir,' they told him. 'Your son will
be back. It is only that he is young, and in Tokyo!' They knew
much of life, these people.
"There was moonlight on the floor of Spring Flower's
chamber. But beauty could not assuage the grief and anger in Isamu's
heart. 'I hate my father!' he cried wildly in Spring Flower's arms.
"And she whispered: 'It is true, my beloved, that
no woman has ever told you that you are the most beautiful of men?'
"'I will not be a dutiful son any longer!' he muttered.
"And she whispered to him again: 'O golden hummingbird,
the sweetest honey lies yet untasted at the flower's heart!'
"'I want you to be mine for ever, Spring Flower!'
"'Hush, my beloved!' she said sadly."
At this point in the story telling, there was an
interruption. We were sufficiently under the spell of the narrative
to have scarcely noticed a mere knock on the door -- except that it brought
Fan abruptly to her feet with a startled look. One would almost have
thought that she had been expecting some unwelcome visit. She stood
there a moment as if to compose herself, and summon up her courage,
and then went resolutely to the door, with a brief look behind.
I think she was seeing our careless attitudes, as we sat or lay star scattered
about the studio floor, with the eyes of a possible maiden aunt from Shiloh!
But it was only a messenger boy with a telegram. She stood in the
door staring at it while the boy clattered whistling down the stairs; and
then she shut the door and came back to us smiling, with the telegram crushed
in her hand.
"Is anything the matter?" Carlo asked.
"No -- nothing," she said. "It's too bad to
have the story broken into like that -- please go on." She took up
the glass which she had set on the mantel over the fireplace when she rose;
it was empty. "But first may I help myself to a drink?" And
while she spoke she looked about, in that way she could not help, for some
man to perform this service for her. I rose. "I'll mix you
one," I said, and went to the kitchen. She followed me restlessly,
and stood there silent and preoccupied with her thoughts while I chopped
ice. Carlo came in a moment later, and demanded of her abruptly:
"who is that from?"
"My mother," she said, and showed it to him.
"Oh-ho!" he said, thoughtfully. "She's really
coming!"
"Yes."
"And who's this Aunt Elvira that's coming along?"
"Her sister. And I don't know what to do, Carlo!
I've staved the family off as long as I could. I think they're suspicious.
At any rate, thank goodness, they haven't walked in on us without warning."
"Wouldn't that be the best thing," he said, "just
to let them walk in on us? They might as well know the truth."
"She shook her head. "I hate scenes so!
And what would be the use of it? You don't suppose for a moment they'd
let me go on living here with you?"
"We can run down to City Hall," he said. "Then
they couldn't object."
"Oh, they couldn't? Couldn't they, though!
I'd like to see their faces at that news. You may not realize it,
Carl dear, but no Breckenridge in all the history of America has ever married
anybody with a name like Ostrovsky. I think they'd much more easily
accept the fact of my living in sin with you!"
"And is that the way you feel about it too?" he
asked haughtily.
"Carlo, darling," she said, "we've argued all that
out. It would simply mean that they'd cut me off; and you know I
can't support myself. I'm no good at any kind of work. I haven't
earned enough in these eight months to keep me in underclothes -- you know
that. It's just no use my trying to hold a job!"
"And I," he said bitterly, "can't support you.
Not now -- perhaps never."
"No, poor darling -- and I don't want you to.
I'd be an awful nuisance to you as a wife."
"I'd take the chance of that," he said. "We'd
get along somehow."
"No, Carlo -- I can't marry a poor man. I've
been too badly brought up."
They had apparently forgotten my presence; and I
should have been more ill at ease during this intimate conversation, if
they had not already discussed the matter openly, in our Greenwich Village
fashion. This was only the expected climax of a situation which we
all knew about, and had talked over for months, without having been able
to offer any happy solution; every one here tonight, except of course our
Japanese friend, could guess the nature of the telegram, and would be awaiting
anxiously the conclusion of this kitchen conference. We all wanted
to save Fan from the dreadful fate of going back to Shiloh. We had
all tried to think of something she could make a living at here in New
York; but she had brought up for twenty years to be gracefully and expensively
useless -- that was just the trouble. In our admiration and affection
for her there had been, at first, because of this decorative uselessness
of hers, a shade of kindly mockery, which turned soon enough into pity
when we came to know her better. The tragic problem of a soul that
truly desired freedom and yet lacked hands capable of securing and defending
it, had left us all bewildered. In time, as we devoutly believed,
she would have learned to be self-supporting -- but these months of effort
had only proved to her how ill adapted she was to the struggle for existence.
She was now utterly discouraged about herself -- and the fact that she
had only that day been fired from a job she had tried terribly hard to
hold and had fondly believed she was getting along very well with, was
perhaps the final stroke of disillusion.
"Oh, well," said Carlo, "I can move on tomorrow,
if that's the answer."
"It's hell," said Fan, bitterly. "But I know
one thing -- my kid sister is going to learn to earn her own living!
At least, I can see to that."
"You'll go back with me, then?"
"They'll make me, Carlo. That's what they've
come here for. I've put them off with lies as long as I could."
"I'm sick of these lies!" said Carlo savagely.
"Yes, I know -- but you don't have to lie to anybody.
I do. If it weren't for my lies, we never could have known each other
at all," she said defensively.
"I'm sorry," he said. "I didn't mean that.
I -- damn it all, I love you, Fan!"
"And I love you, Carlo boy!"
They clung to each other for a moment desperately.
They were right in front of the closed door, and I couldn't get out without
disturbing them.
"But, she said, "we might as well face the truth
between ourselves. They won't ever let me come back here. They'll
keep me in Shiloh."
"And marry you off?"
"Must you think of that now? What is the difference?
Oh, yes, they will try to marry me off."
"Will you let them?" he demanded. "Oh, I've
no right to ask that," he went on bitterly. "Why should you stay
an old maid for my sake? It's ridiculous. And that man you've
told me about -- the one your mother wants you to marry -- it will be him,
I suppose."
"Suppose it, then, if it gives you any pleasure,"
she said coldly. "I'm not asking who your next Greenwich Village
sweetheart will be." She turned away from him.
"Oh, Fan! Fan!" he cried out in torment, putting
his hand on her shoulder.
"I know," she said. "It's the way life is.
We must forgive each other, Carlo. Whatever happens -- we've had
this!"
They were again in each other's arms. The
door was clear, and I might slip out quietly and leave them in this farewell
embrace. But I didn't want to go, and for an odd reason. The
others, out there in the studio, would read from my face the conclusion
of this scene. They would know that Fan was going back to Shiloh,
to marry a man who could take care of her; they would know that her brave
adventure was to be only a sentimental episode in her life -- and I couldn't
face them with that news. Because I didn't want to believe that Greenwich
Village was no more than that to Fan. I couldn't accept what had
happened as the last word. The scene wasn't over for me -- and so
I waited, desperately, chopping more ice.
But just then Fan took notice of my existence, and
said to me: "Please tell them to go on with the story and not wait
for us!"
I went out into the studio, avoiding the anxious
eyes of Fan's and Carlo's friends, and delivered that message.
"It was practically finished," said the storyteller.
"The end can readily be imagined. But if you wish me to put it into
words, here it is." And he went on:
-
"At sunset the lovers walked for the last time in
the little garden; stood on the tiny lacquered bridge to feed the scarlet
carp; and drank tea under the vines. They were saying farewell to
the place of their happiness.
"The ground was carpeted with white petals.
'See," said Spring Flower, 'how few are left now on the tree!' The
glow of sunset beyond the walls was dying away, and there had come up a
little sharp wind from the west. The temple bells chimed the hour,
and as if in the solemn vibration of their chime the last blossoms trembled
and drifted down slowly. A misty rain began to fall.
"'Sayonara!'
"'Sayonara!'
"When he had reached the gate of the town of Green
Houses, Isamu realized that he had no money to pay for a jinrikisha.
'Well, what does it matter?' he thought, and set off on foot, across the
dyke. A jinrikisha hurried past, bearing an eager youth toward the
gate -- the first of the evening throng.
"Halfway across, Isamu turned and looked back.
He saw the weather-beaten gate, and the lonely willow beside it -- 'the
looking-back willow,' so named because it is the last thing one sees as
one goes away. The Isamu turned, and walked on, in the rain."
-
We thanked the story-teller, and praised him for
his tale. But in all of our minds it had another meaning that he
did not quite know about -- a meaning that had shaken our gay confidence
in ourselves. In spite of myself, I was taking this as the end of
that scene in the kitchen. Would Fan look back that way at the Washington
Arch from the bus that took her for the last time up Fifth Avenue to the
station? Some one was arguing half-irritably with the story-teller
over the sociological implications of his tale, and he was maintaining
a polite and skeptical calm. He looked so sure! Was life like
that, after all? Fan would come in, in a moment; and we should never
know, to look at her face, of the ordeal she had gone through nor the decision
she had arrived at; her training had done that for her. Oh, they
would both be good sports about it all!... I couldn't bear not knowing
any longer. I went boldly to the kitchen, and entered. They
did not look up, and I stood there against the closed door.
Fan was perched upon the kitchen table, frowning.
"What are you thinking about, now? asked Carlo.
"ABout my kid sister,' she said. "And about
my Aunt Elvira. There's a story about my Aunt Elvira. She gave
up the man she was in love with, and never married. The family objected
to him, for some reason. But now I realize something that I never
knew. I've always been a favorite of hers; and when I was a little
girl she used to talk to me seriously -- seriously and vaguely. She
was trying to tell me something; and now I think that she was trying to
tell me what I've been planning to tell my kid sister. But I was
a gay and giddy little thing, and it meant nothing to me. It won't
mean anything to my kid sister, either -- not a damn thing. Because
I shan't tell her the truth -- I shan't dare. I'm too much of a coward.
And in the end I'll give up trying to help her. In ten years I'll
be like everybody else in Shiloh. Here's Aunt Elvira coming to tell
me now that mother knows best after all. I shall be like that. --
Isn't life funny?"
"You won't be like that," he said.
"Oh, yes, I shall. And if I'm faithful to your memory,
Carlo, and don't marry anybody -- then I'll think that young people haven't
any right to be braver than I was. I'll have all my Greenwich Village
memories laid away in lavender, and I'll take them out now and then and
sniffle over them -- the way that God-damn' Jap is doing with his romantic
memories of some slant-eyed beauty back home, and telling us that we're
just like him and that girl. Well, I guess we are."
"No, we're not. I'm not afraid of two old
women -- and I don't believe you are!"
"Yes, I am, Carlo. Those two old women have
all the world's wisdom between them. They know what will happen to
me if I try to be braver than I am. And they're quite right about
it. I'll fail -- miserably. The only thing is -- perhaps my
failure might help my kid sister to get free. She'd know the truth,
at least -- she'd know that a girl didn't have to stay in Shiloh!"
"You'll stick it out, then? he said eagerly.
"I don't know. If I do stick it out -- it
won't be a pretty story for either of us to sentimentalize over.
Without money to spend, I'll be unhappy, I know that. We'll be sick
of each other many a time. I doubt it will work out at all.
I'll be wretched without all the pretty things you couldn't buy me.
I'm lazy -- and ignorant -- and a coward. I'll make a failure of
it, I'm sure. I'll be a hell of a helpmeet to you, Carlo. But
-- if you want me to try--"
"Good girl!" he almost shouted, lifting her triumphantly
in his arms.
"I'll go out and look for another job tomorrow morning!"
she said.
We all went back into the studio. "I'm so
sorry," said Fan, "that I couldn't hear the end of your beautiful story."
"You missed very little," he assured her.
"The ending was merely the inevitable one."
I looked at Fan and Carlo, and smiled. Why
should we trouble to contradict him?